the Complication

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SONGS ARE IN ORDER FROM SANITARY HELL (scroll down for lyrics):
Get What You Give
She's A Whore
Last Chance
Freeze Frame
In My Time
Ache You
Sanitary Hell
Safe From Me
White Rabbit (lyrics by Grace Slick, not included on this website)
Wait For Me
In The Sun
COMING SOON: OTHER SONGS FROM THE COMPLICATION:
No Surprise
Raining Like Crazy
Over Me
Borrowed
Always Wasted
Something's Wrong
Everything

 

GET WHAT YOU GIVE  (Bzdawka)
I can’t make you happy 
I can’t make you sad
I can’t give you all those things
You wish you always had

I am not your savior
I might be the ghost
Of the only love you ever had
That left your cold heart lost

There’s a rock in the garden
With a shameless jagged edge
If I get too close to this
I’m sure to bleed to death

You might think you love me
But love you cannot give
I know what you think of me
‘Cuz I’ve been ripped to shreds
I might let you fuck me
For all the things I get
But we all get just what we give

I took this lonely heart of mine
And threw it in the trash
I buried all the memories
All the good and bad

I once had a lover
Who I thought could save this wretch
He turned out to be man
Who’d crack open my head

Blood, thorns, and roses
Are what make up this mess
You gave the goddam world to me
Then threw it in my face

The chains can’t be broken
They’re up inside your head
Hang on tight and don’t forget
You get just what you give

You tell me you love me
That’s your wishful stand
I know what you think
How I am feeding off your hand
You think you can fuck me
For all the things you give
But love you cannot give to me
So you will get just what you give

 

SHE’S A WHORE  (Bzdawka)
She kills it every night
She makes the wrong things right
She’s such a whore
That’s why I love her

She knows your every move
She’ll smile when she approves
She don’t smoke cigarettes
Smokes only dope

She’s like everything
With her angel wings
She can land right on your shoulder

She’s like your favorite dish
She’ll grant your every wish
‘Cuz you know, she’s such a whore

She’s got a bachelor’s
In high-tech transformers
The job was such a bore
That’s why she quit it

She drives a red corvette
From seventy-six
She’s such a whore
And a vegetarian 

She’s like everything
With her angel wings
She can land right on your shoulder

She’s like your favorite dish
She’ll grant your every wish
‘Cuz you know, she’s such a whore

With her angel wings
And her golden rings
She sparkles all the night

She struts down the stairs
Without a single care
‘Cuz you know, she’s such a whore

She’s an angel straight from Heaven
She will never leave you wanting
She’s got a tattoo on her shoulder
She breaks down the tides of mortar

There’s a haze of pink mist surrounding her shores
She gives strength to all the sacred winners of the wars
It’s her magic touching each of us down to the core
She can always give you more

She’ll make you love her more
She’ll even up the score
She’s such a whore

 

LAST CHANCE  (Bzdawka)
I know all about you
I’ve been in those shoes
Nowhere to go but out of your mind
I’ve been to the jungle
Stayed there for awhile
So much mayhem it gets you high

Clock ticks every second
Chimes you blind every night
Pushing, the edge is in sight now
Don’t look down, don’t look down

Baby, don’t run
I’ll keep all your secrets
Safe in my heart
Nobody ever found the answer
By running fast & running far
I can help you slay your demons
Among the wreckage
This could be your last chance

She said she’d be with you
Then was nowhere to be found
Promises ringing in the haze
She left you alone there
Beaten and broken down
At the bottom of your staircase

The madness slowly sets in 
As you swim in the ice
Too close, your head creeps over
Don’t look down, don’t look down

A sea of space-time is never-ending
As you lay there in real time
Beautiful aching sets deep inside
Times like this, it feels just fine

Baby, don’t jump 
I kept all your secrets
In my heart
Nobody ever cured the disease
By jumping in & drowning out
All the demons haunting your heart
Among the wreckage
This is now your last chance

 

FREEZE FRAME  (Bzdawka)
There is a nothing
Truly a vacuum
That dwells in the hearts of
Some who say they love you
They’ll show you kindness
Throw you their dollars
Until you show them
You are not flawless

Love it fades, it fades away
And still I stand here in this space
You caught me in a freeze frame

There is no time for 
Calculations 
Only the memory 
Of the desperation 
Screaming in silence 
Behind the smiling face 
We carry the burden 
Of the masquerade 

Love it fades, it fades away 
And multiplies the price I pay 
You caught me in a freeze-frame 

Love it fades, it fades away 
And you can't make me go away 
You caught me in a freeze frame

 

IN MY TIME  (Filipek)
I've been walking for three days
Been walking in a slow haze
And I know I got to move on 
Hey, yeah, I got to move on 

I felt the warmth of the morning sun 
Felt the chill of a loaded gun
Held shadows in a troubled night
They got me back till I get it right  
In my time, in my time 

Padre told me on an old dirt road 
Solitude is just a home for the soul 
I left behind a house, but not a home
To find an answer for this question unknown 
In my time

Laid on a rock and stared at the sky
Counted clouds and birds in flight

And I know I got to move on
Yeah, I got to move on
In my time

 

ACHE YOU  (Bzdawka)
I ain’t gonna ache you till I feel better
I ain’t gonna ache you till I feel better
I must let this be, although my heart’s shattered
I ain’t gonna ache you till I feel better

This journey has taken it's toll on me 
All of my crying will never bring me peace 
Strangers, they take me in and treat me like a queen 
But you state your love for me 
I don't care what you claim 
Because I don't believe a word you say

I ain’t gonna ache you till I feel better 
Burn you at the stake, no, that's not the answer 
Somehow, we must put an end to this chapter 
I ain’t gonna ache you till I feel better

These hopeless nights are the only ones with meaning 
I run to them ‘cause they just feel so soothing
All the plastic people, they decimate my brain 
We’re near the edge, it’s a damage game
I’ll listen once your claim 
If you pack your bags and run with me 

Hello, Greetings, Your Majesty 
I know that I, I am your bane 
I've come to give myself to you 
‘Cause I can't bear this shame 
But you and, we I need a love 
A stronger love than ever was 
To save the lives of you and me

 

SANITARY HELL  (Bzdawka/Filipek/Bishop)
All of the ghosts are crying ‘cause I left them in the rain
All of the dolls of the house are still playing all their games
Don't try to make sense of them; I assure you, they’re insane 
Don't try to find me with them, I left there yesterday

Foresight of my crime, I'll take the blame 
My life, sanctify, still I'm in pain

You've created for me a sanitary hell 
Trying to find the path that goes down the wishing well 
Don't make me wait again down here till the clock strikes twelve 
Close the gates, it's a lockdown in the sanitary hell

There is a weight you carry in your apprehensive ways 
Day in, day out, we go on with the charade 
I'm so confused in my reluctant everything 
And through my veins runs your addictive medicine 

Such a lonely place here where, we dwell 
Still trying to find the path that goes down the wishing well 
Don't know how I'll go on under your spell 
You've created for me a sanitary hell

 

SAFE FROM ME  (Bzdawka)
You don’t wanna know
No, not at all
You don’t wanna be
Part of the problem
I can’t save you or me
Down on the ground
Cracked and bleeding
 
Go, be safe from me
Go, now, before it’s too late
Take heed, there’s so many things you can’t see
Go, run, save yourself from me

I ain’t got no problems 
I wanna tell you
You can always find them
Just walk behind me
They latch on, so sticky
Dragging well into the deep

Go now, save yourself from me

You don’t wanna be part of my history

 

WAIT FOR ME  (Bzdawka)
I forged your signature 
On a blank check
But the back wouldn’t gimme no money
I made you go deaf 
Ringing my cymbals in your ear
You made my heart break 
When you told me to go home
Lord, have mercy
You didn’t think when you got home I’d be gone

Please forgive me
I never meant to hurt you, Baby
All I ever wanted 
Was to see you happy, yeah
I tried to tell you
But I know that you never believed me
Just remember
You’re the best thing to happen to me

I wanted to be your bride but you denied me
Then the clock stopped ticking
You didn’t know I’d then become 
Your fantasy
I brought the gifts you gave me back to the store
Just to get the money
You never noticed all of those pretty things were gone

You don’t have to tell me
I know it was never easy
The cage we lived in, 
I was the only escapee, yeah
I know you loved me
It’s curious the ways you showed me
I believe I was the best thing you’ve ever seen

Wait for me
Wait for me
You know I’m coming around
So just wait for me

So now here I am in my own little hell
Sorting out these puzzle pieces
All I can say is, “Thank you for looking out for me.”
If I could go back and do it all again,
I’d rearrange the story
I didn’t know the love I had and how I was wrong

Aw, please forgive me
I never meant to hurt you, Baby
All I ever wanted 
Was for you to be happy
I tried to tell you
But I know that you never believed me
Just remember
You’re the best thing to happen to me

 

IN THE SUN  (Bzdawka)
(This song is dedicated to the most beautiful and amazing man of my life.)

Hey, how you doing up there?
I hope you're better now
No longer scared
It's been so much longing for you
So many crosses to bear
Passion followed by emptiness
And dreams you couldn't share

And, oh, how you fought your demons off,
But no, they were never gone
And how, how you played your stage so well,
While deep inside you drowned

Now you're up there in the sun
And all your dreams have finally just begun
As you look down on me
Please send your love 'cuz your time has come

Hey, is it lovely up there?
I bet it's something new
Feeling safe and well
I can see you taking it in
Basking in the clouds
All of your emptiness 
Has been filled by Heaven's prayer

But here, inside this empty house
I know you bid us well
And high, up among the moon and stars
In His house you dwell

Now you're up there in the sun
Where all your dreams have finally just begun
Save your lovelight for me
Someday I'll be there when my time has come

Hey, how you doing up there?
I can feel your smile shining down on me